Saturday, January 24, 2009

118.

Owen: Everyone Feels Like You

Today was really not the day for fake smiles or replying to customers with "I'm doing well, thank you. How about yourself?" But alas, I had to or else I would not have made so many sales. One woman said that it is refreshing to be in a store so welcoming. That made things a bit better. Also an old man came in to the store and was hard at hearing. He would ask the price of things and he soon became very rude because he thought I was saying "No" when I was actually telling him the price. I've cooled down a bit from earlier today. I don't want to jump off of a building anymore. I was very productive and it made me feel better.

I have been listening to Elliott Smith, Owen, and Mt. Eerie all day. Someone asked me if it was my suicide mix.

A head that aches doesn’t have to stay that way, just let what’s dead go. I know there's pain in leaving things all too well. In time, you’ll find needing things only kills you slowly. If you’re not sure who you are, you’re not alone. If you’re not sure what you want, you’re not alone. If you’re not sure of life of love, you’re not alone. Tell your friends, hey come on over and we'll talk. You bring the drinks, I’ll bring the bad news. Everyone feels like you. Tell your dad to come on over and we’ll talk, you bring your drinks, I’ll bring the fuck you’s. Long awaited - long overdue. Tell your ex-girlfriend you need her to be there at bedtime. ' Cause you can't sleep with your mind on all these things. Bring out what’s dead and dying, rotting body, while you still can.

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