My final thoughts:

I thought that you would be the one to help me get over my fears of relationships, considering you were my first new attempt in a year. In reality, you just created all new ones. I wish that everything you said to me had not made me feel so good and just turn out to be lies.

I don't think I am going to date until I move to Chicago. Even then, I probably won't. Just when I'm back up on my feet, I'm pushed down again. This time, let's hope I get back up a lot faster.