103.

I had to drop status in Art History today. It was really disappointing and when my teacher asked me if I was okay, I had to leave pretty quickly so that I wouldn't cry in front of her. I usually do not blame anyone or anything for my faults except for myself, but this year's round of seasonal depression has made my this past quarter hell. I'm passing all of my classes but my grades are not as high as I would like them to be. I never used to be "average."

You're still in the back of my mind, where you'll stay until you can make a solid decision. I can't keep holding myself back. I can't keep hoping to changing your mind.