138.

After not talking to you for four days, I have now convinced myself of the worst.

137.

Dear you,

I am already to the point that I am terrified of our future. Any day now you could repeat the same lines I've heard over and over again. I want to hear something new, lines that won't break my heart. Every time I start to worry, a good thing starts to fail. I want some reassurance that after a year of not dating anyone, I'm not putting my heart on the line for something that won't matter or last. I've wasted a year trying to be with people that will never feel the same for me, again or ever. Everything you do makes me feel something inside of me that I've never felt before. I don't mind the long drives because I know what comes at the end of the road.

Your Over-analyzing Girl



Photograph by Nan Goldin.

Mirah : Body Below

Everything is falling into place and I'm on my toes as to what happens next.

There's a story I could tell when the cold wind starts to blow Like a whisper in the night from a friend that you know. It says "Keep holding on to my body below. Forsake me not, don't ever leave me alone." There was a time when the sun gave it's life to the trees and the air it smelled sweeter for the honey and the bees. The ocean rolled salty and wild and free. The fruit swelled and ripened and burst with their seeds. But what starts with desire can turn into need. The chest gets all tight like it's got some disease. What burns in the fire just ends up as coals. What floats on the water can sink like a stone. Now i want to believe every word that you say. I want you to need me to not go away. Have trust in the nighttime and faith in the day to walk on the water, be never afraid. Can you bear it upon you? My love has gone under, above all the stars have forgotten to glow. But if you keep holding on to my body below you, I'll warm you and keep you from feeling alone.

Painting by : Gustav Klimt "The Kiss"

133.

Please explain to me why you are so perfect for me.
Please don't be too good to be true.

132.

Elliott Smith : Going Nowhere

I am torturing myself. I chose to work on Valentine's Day so that I would keep myself occupied and kill time until I possibly drive to Greensburg/Lexington. Of course I didn't weigh in the fact that I work in a boutique where many people come to buy gifts. Also I have been listening to Elliott Smith all day. I've been here since 3 and have already had to help pick out gifts for girlfriends or mothers. My mom bought me a big bag of red Sweedish Fish and a card. I didn't buy her anything so maybe I'll make her something while I'm here. Or I'll just buy her one of the nice cards we sell here. I really hope that I won't be in Cincinnati tonight.

Saw you move a certain way, missed you a lot. Return to this abandoned place, should a been forgot. Echoes drown the conversation out. Echoes that only seem to bring about a silent expression, things you may allow going nowhere.

131.

I don't have much to update on besides a few new pictures.

Paige Pederzani - Park Hills, KY.

130.

Hey, that's me.