129.

I finally have a computer. The adventure getting it was amusing and extremely uncomfortable. I have a Powerbook G4. I'm getting a new MacBook before I go to Chicago.

I'm really happy right now. The sun is shining and temperature is nice. Plus I have something really good going for me.

This weekend I plan on watching The Saddle Club with Kelsey because we are twelve years old and don't care.

I am so glad that I am finally happy.

Paige Pederzani - Park Hills, KY.

128.

Everywhere I look is something concerning Valentine's Day. It makes me want to puke. With the exception of Rodney, I never celebrated it with anyone other than my dad. He would always buy me a stuffed animal and my favorite chocolates. The last Valentine's Day present I got from him was a dancing stuffed dog that sang "Sugar pie honey bunch, you know that I love you."

127.

Bright Eyes: Puella Quam Amo Est Pulchra

I haven't felt this good in a long time.

I had a beautiful, beautiful time. The drives and the talks were amazing. The kind of friend I though I'd never find. I had a beautiful, beautiful time. You have a beautiful, beautiful smile, the way it cuts and collapses on your lips. And when you touch me, I shake like a child. It's late, I'm afraid you might leave because sometimes it seems like you still don't believe me. And there's nothing I can do to concentrate. It's so distracting always thinking of you. So I expose and explain and I meant everything that I said. It's moments like this that repeat and replay in my head when I'm laying in bed. It's a beautiful, beautiful time as you laugh and roll onto your stomach. The carpet embraces your design. My heart pounds as I lay by your side because sometimes I find that I am unable to hide all these feelings that flow in this basement. And in this dim light you look so beautiful. I'm unsure and unclear with the words that I say. I'm happy when you are near and I wish that forever could stay just like today. You have beautiful, beautiful eyes so bright and alive and enchanting. I want to be with you all of the time. It's hopeless but I have to try anyway.

126.

Never have I ever let my guard down this fast.
Never have I ever felt this comfortable.
Never have I ever wanted to stay in the middle of no where for longer than necessary.
Never have I ever wanted to sew someone to my side.
Never have I ever felt this way.



I lose.
Or maybe I'm really winning.

125

I want to feel alive. I want to feel something real. I want someone to sweep me off of my feet and make me experience the world in a new way. Possibly all I really need is a change of scenery. I've lost my creative energy.

Aaron and I are going to start going to parks all the time when the weather gets better. I can't wait.

124.

Today, at work, I was putting tights on a mannequin. Two middle aged men took pictures of me doing so. I'm glad everyone finds my work so amusing.

123.

I have so many options, yet all I want is the old.